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Hey there...I've just returned from Kuching..had an interview the day before...not sure whether that can be count as an 'interview'..but I'll let it pass..hopefully will get it... =.=

My body still itching due to lots of traveling...going to Bintulu last Saturday and Sunday return to Sibu..then Sunday midnite went to Kuching coz the next morning hv an interview...then on the same day that nite went back Sibu again...damn tired...

I've been on bus the whole nite for the past 2 nite...cant really sleep well...been thinking a lot...expecially about my future career....and him...of course....

I miss him so much...miss him badly...he seems quite busy now probably he's having exam...hope it's really bcoz of that....keep feeling as if he tried to avoid me...although I dont wanna believe that...I ask him if we can hv lunch or dinner together but he said he's busy..alrite then...I pray for him n hope he done well n all da best...

For me..he's my other half...really hope it'll everlasting...although I cant predict n really know what's he's thinking..n feel... Just hope...he can see my care n love for him....

Miss him so much...wondering when both of us can have a chit chat or meeting again...feel like havent talked to each other like years.... Yeah I know...Im overreact.... :)

Miss him damn much...Dear God...Protect him always in whatever he's doing.... n my other prayers too... Amen...

Where should I start?....

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September, 2011

Everything begins in September...While I’m still a CBGian....

Early September….don‘t know why….that song keep on running through my mind my head….which song?..well of course the one that I had posted earlier in my blog…When September End…maybe it was meant to remind me of my past..or probably just some signed God give which I haven’t thought of.

1^st week of September. I feel very de-motivated. My manager seems like he never appreciates what I do, what I accomplished. How glad I am that my supervisor (the executive) knows how to appreciate me and she gave me lots of advice, motivation & encouragement. And also…the motivator (a speaker / CEO of a local college which I had known while conducting a training for the staffs’). Those two, and with few of other CBGians and colleagues’ that know how to appreciate us CBGians, are those who manage to give me the will….to keep holding on.

The motivator always email me..asking how I was doing…have I found a job, and said that sooner or later I’ll find a job for myself coz he said that I’m very hardworking. Why he said that?? Well…I cooperate with him for quite a long time in order for me to conduct the staff training successfully…probably he observed from that time onward…yeah…probably…Among all things…I’ll never forget the sentence which he said to me..he said:

"TAKE THE CBG AS PLATFORM TO TAKE OFF. FLY HIGHER WITH THE EXPERIENCE. CBG SOON BECOMES HISTORY BUT BE PATIENCE, TAKE OFF WHEN U R EQUIPPED"

Keep holding on…until mid of September….I made a decision…I’ll leave by the end of the month, resign as a CBG, I’ll find whatever jobs that’s available after I resign, even if it’s a part timer job. My closest cousin, knowing my situation also keeps on help me to find job…

Third week of September..I received a phone call..asking me to come to another town for interview the next day..very last minute..but I was grateful because my executive support me and let me took leave to attend the interview…I still remember the interview that…September 22, 2011.

The interview went smoothly..despite the fact that the interview was done in their staff house coz didn’t have an office yet n I got lost while getting to the interview place…the interviewer said that she’ll inform me again regarding the status…late that afternoon..I received her sms saying that their HR Manager from Singapore want to meet me and asked me to join their staff dinner that night…..I repeat….their STAFF DINNER……..So I joined the dinner that night although feel uncomfortable coz I’m not their staff…..yet….. but the dinner went smoothly..we even took pictures…

On the same day…after the dinner..on midnight…before I went to sleep, I received sms from the interviewer, asking me to report duty on the coming Monday, September 26, 2011…I was…shocked n blur.....by that time, I know that they desperately need people but I still didn’t know the reason…I inform her the earliest I can start duty is on Tuesday, September 27 as I also need to settle my things and resign from CBG…she agreed but asked me to come to the same house where we had the interview the next day….

September 23, 2011 (Friday)

I wake up early waiting for the interviewer to pick me up…afterward we went to the staff’s house as their temporary office is there….

Once we reached there…I met the HR Manager & the HR Exec again…both of them said they are grateful that I’m willing to come on that day as they want to brief me some procedure/tasks before I report duty on September 27, 2011. So I spend my whole day there discuss lots of issues especially those related to Sarawak Labor Ordinance as they are not local company and need some of my view….How glad I am that I’ve done my revision as the last time I done my revision was during my university moment, which is in 2009?...Haha….

September 27, 2011

So I report duty today…I start my day with payroll and time sheet…as their cut off date is on 25^th every month and this is the first time the payroll are done here as for 1^st and 2^nd time were done by HQ in Singapore…so based on the excel sample they give me last Friday, I create another one…and key in all the employees data….one by one….into the excel sheet...I go through their P File one by one to avoid mistakes and lots of it I still need to double confirm with HQ and liaise with them….after 2 and half day, I manage to come out with a proper excel datasheet of everyone which I try my best to format and create from the sample provided…I started to key in the figures necessary and…..so on…….my life change since then…

October 1, 2011

Today, me and my manager (Admin Manager) move to site office….very small office….but couldn’t be worse than no office at all, right?..Yeap…so I should be thankful….I still remember…first week of October….both me and my manager haven’t even once…use the office washroom….we prefer went to our client, main contractor washroom haha….however…after both of us cleaned the washroom and office (housekeeping)…then we started to use our own office washroom….

The rest…..lead a very busy life day and night…..almost everything need to be done manually…

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Within 2 months…I’ve managed to create a more efficient payroll excel database….I even create payslip system using the same payroll excel file, except that different sheet, of course…I remember I’ve manage to create the payslip system in one month time…not automatically…still semi auto haha….why I said so?..coz still need to enter staff number, only then every particulars and details will appear and can print..but still…better then key in one by one with staffs’ number increasing and really a waste of time if I were to key in their basic, allowance, OT, SOCSO, EPF and everything one by one haha….one of my achievement which I wouldn’t forget….and I started to learn using mail merger and etc…

Very busy life…can considered as no life…why?..Because, every morning wake up at 4 am, took off to site around 5.15 am or 5.30 am especially after I moved to company’s hostel…and only reach town or hostel around 8 pm or above if got anything urgent…even after office hour (office hour at site is 7.30 am – 6.30 pm), I still need to continue my paperwork at ‘home’ coz too many things to cover…since both me and my manager don’t have assistant to help us..the management did propose to hire some more people to help both of us..but recruit the right people on the right time, right place, right job…not as easy…especially when we consider the workplace situation/environment…for sure we’ll feel sorry for the new member if she or he were to joined us…however…my manager managed to get office assistant to help us a bit…

After 3 months…around mid of November…become demoralized…..actually…when come to my 2^nd month…lots of things happened….regardless either happy, unhappy, good or bad things…well….anywhere we worker…organization politics are unavoidable….same thing happen to me…no need to explain details for other incoming matters…..people up there started to blab bla bla n even accused us of nothing….never even appreciate our efforts…my efforts….days and night….

Keep holding on.......

When come to December….worsen…”that activity” become more active….even involve the the PDRM side….but still…up until January…that person who came and stays there since December…still want to back up the one who shouldn’t be backed up…Mid January….I came to realize…I’ve given them(the people here/some of people outside here but still within same organization) enough chance….still no changes…keep on taking in does who shouldn’t be taken in….even up to this time..I can even see that our subcon are being treated better and special than us who was employed directly under this organization…by end of January…I decide I’ll leave…since nobody is listening….what’s the point to stay….I don’t want when the local authorities found it out, my career is doomed….I’m willing to be jobless for a while rather than getting my name blacklist by ‘JTK’…..those people (2-4 of them) keep on insisting to take those outsiders in through improper way improper procedure although I’ve reminded the project under SCORE must prioritize locals but yet they won’t listen…worse…even said that locals don’t know how to work…..WTH??? Maybe in some area those outsiders are more expert, but shouldn’t said all those things..it hurt us..hurt me…me who have been sacrificed my time….days working…night time continues on until morning sometime…there are times when I didn’t get sleep for one whole week…even during my rest day, I even work/done my paperwork, even I went back to my hometown, during X’mas time…I even do my payroll…regardless of what my family complained coz I don’t have time for them…..that’s not the only issue….since January….I can’t get everyone cooperation…only a few in the team willing to cooperate….and I started to became their ‘Sandwich’ since December…why??....Coz I’m always the one who ended up stuck in the middle coz they don’t want to cooperate…blaming each other…everyone started to became selfish….and I’m the one who became VICTIM!!...

Keep holding on.......

Tired of became sandwich, tired of their attitude, their behavior, tired of some of the illegal things which I don’t like at all but have to for the sake of my job, tired of all those selfishness…..I decided to quit…sooner or later…

Keep holding on.......

For the illegal things…no need to mention…they just prefer to take short cut than actual procedure….have inform them it was risky…nobody listen….even my superior..this time she even just proceed…although previously she really against it….this time around….is my climax..can’t stand any longer…especially after keep on becoming sandwich for those peoples’ sake and after one incident/case where people don’t believe me/doubt me…..so I quit…February 14, 2012. I quit my job. So currently waiting for another job offer..hope won’t get into a corrupted environment again….Amen

The End....and It's March 1, 2012...

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