Hurm...lately don't know why...everyone is pushing me towards banking sector for my career...n what a coincidence that Maybank have few vacants and I did apply...n today I was informed that Kanowit branch RHB also need people...and I will pass my resume to my brother by the weekend...
On the other hand...I miss him....very much.....there might be nothing between us...I mean any special relationship as we already broke up last May and our 'meeting' last Friday might mean nothing to him and maybe for him to fulfill he's needs.....but it does mean a lot to me....
He might don't love me and treat me like.....what people call it?....baju pakai buang?....nevermind...consider Im just he's.....toy when he's bored....but Im happy enough to see him happy....yup.....I am hurt....badly...when the person I love treated me that way.....but I can't change people....I will just have to keep holding on...until one day...he officially owned by others..by marriage...then..I'll move on...probably...or just watch him from afar....
Despite he's silent attitude after our 'meeting'....he do reply my msg...sometimes....n it makes me happy when I know that he's in good health n condition....I always pray he'll be in good health always....enough for me...
I know Im torturing n hurting myself....but I really can't help it.....can't help the feeling of wanting to be with him...protect him...support him in whatever he do.....
Hmmm...later continue....
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