Received Interview Invitation Email from Maybank

Hi  there!

Today I received an email from Maybank HQ HR..inviting me for an interview next week, for the post of CRE,Customer Relationship Executive.

It has been so long since I'm nervous when I have interview...haha probably too much and a lots of interviews that I don't know how to feel nervous...but this time, I'm superb NERVOUS hahaha...

Keeps on wondering how the interview would be...what they would ask n etc.... maybe there would even be an assessment held...It's a well known organization we're talking about..Maybank..hahaha...sure they would have a different way of selecting their people ;)

Im glad God answered another of my prayer...which is this email and the interview :) Thank YOU GOD...

Anyway, no matter what, I'll try my best...with God help n I won't stop praying :)

Dear God.. If this is the job for me, pls help me n guide me... If it;s not for me, pls strengthen my heart so that I won't be disappointed too much n won't give up.... Amen.

Maybank called....

Despite all the messed up of my feelings n life... Maybank HR called me....the gurl said will arrange an interview for me in Sibu next week... they will email me for my confirmation... good news... n also bad news...dunno lah...Im actually not into banking sector..unless this is my destiny..but still...I'll do my best...

And not long after that..my ex colleague in Bintulu called me...he said another project start soon and ask me to join them...but I dun really think Im ready to go back there...after everything that happened to me there...still hurts... I'll leave to God....

Banking Sector?...

Hurm...lately don't know why...everyone is pushing me towards banking sector for my career...n what a coincidence that Maybank have few vacants and I did apply...n today I was informed that Kanowit branch RHB also need people...and I will pass my resume to my brother by the weekend...

On the other hand...I miss him....very much.....there might be nothing between us...I mean any special relationship as we already broke up last May and our 'meeting' last Friday might mean nothing to him and maybe for him to fulfill he's needs.....but it does mean a lot to me....

He might don't love me and treat me like.....what people call it?....baju pakai buang?....nevermind...consider Im just he's.....toy when he's bored....but Im happy enough to see him happy....yup.....I am hurt....badly...when the person I love treated me that way.....but I can't change people....I will just have to keep holding on...until one day...he officially owned by others..by marriage...then..I'll move on...probably...or just watch him from afar....

Despite he's silent attitude after our 'meeting'....he do reply my msg...sometimes....n it makes me happy when I know that he's in good health n condition....I always pray he'll be in good health always....enough for me...

I know Im torturing n hurting myself....but I really can't help it.....can't help the feeling of wanting to be with him...protect him...support him in whatever he do.....

Hmmm...later continue....

TiRed....Lots Of ThiNkinG....

Hey there...I've just returned from Kuching..had an interview the day before...not sure whether that can be count as an 'interview'..but I'll let it pass..hopefully will get it... =.=

My body still itching due to lots of traveling...going to Bintulu last Saturday and Sunday return to Sibu..then Sunday midnite went to Kuching coz the next morning hv an interview...then on the same day that nite went back Sibu again...damn tired...

I've been on bus the whole nite for the past 2 nite...cant really sleep well...been thinking a lot...expecially about my future career....and him...of course....

I miss him so much...miss him badly...he seems quite busy now probably he's having exam...hope it's really bcoz of that....keep feeling as if he tried to avoid me...although I dont wanna believe that...I ask him if we can hv lunch or dinner together but he said he's busy..alrite then...I pray for him n hope he done well n all da best...

For me..he's my other half...really hope it'll everlasting...although I cant predict n really know what's he's thinking..n feel... Just hope...he can see my care n love for him....

Miss him so much...wondering when both of us can have a chit chat or meeting again...feel like havent talked to each other like years.... Yeah I know...Im overreact.... :)

Miss him damn much...Dear God...Protect him always in whatever he's doing.... n my other prayers too... Amen...

DePreSSeD!!

Depressed....stress..tension...dissapointed...sad...hurt....aLL in ONE!! :'(

I guess what others always said were true after all... they will change right after they got what they've been wanted all along...no more sweet talks..no more caring attitude...no more lots of chatting/talks..instead it'll seem like they'll keep away n sort of...avoiding.... can't sense the sincerity...while b4 they get what they've been wanted...they're always there by our side...

But its ok...coz..I love him..I'll wait..for him to change back..or at least...until he knows how much I love him n care for him...or even worse....until he left me... :(

Dear God..If U hear my pray...Pls open his heart..n let him see how much I care for him n love him... Amen...

Sad...

Right now... I feel this....

 

God... give me strength... I'm so so so sad.... :(

I only show my concern..is it wrong?...

I can sense n see you're trying to avoid me..though I don't know and not sure whether you really are...

I have feelings too...Am not just any toys...

I know you're busy... I just wanna cheer you up and became your strength...

But no matter how busy you are...I just hope that you wouldn't say such words such sentence...

But you said it already... and it hurts like hell...regardless you said it purposely or not....

Are u sincere?... Or just playing around?...But deep in my heart I can feel that you also have the feelings that I had...

Just..maybe coz you're a guy then you're a bit ego...

What you said just now...really influence me a lot... :(

Just hoping... I can forget what you had said... :(

But I can't....hurts....so much...

BeeN tHinKing A LoT...

I keep on thinking...n thinking....n thinking.....bout him..bout me...bout us....what will happen next... I'm really unto him.. :) Does he feel this way too?..Although I'm a bit doubt it...men mah...ego.... =.=
 
I was so tense, so stresses...n sad....but got some good sentences and advise from my friend....at least manage to calm me a bit  =.=

Well... among the things my friend said....

"Marriage is about love, sharing, liking and being happy together...

DON'T FIND SOMEONE THAT U CAN LIVE WITH... BUT FIND SOMEONE THAT U CANNOT LIVE WITHOUT"

Be happy with someone that can make u happy even though belum tentu u akan kawin dgn nya  

So, go on with your life, follow the flow... "


So I guess I'll follow the advise...am trying my best...to just go on with my life..n follow the flow... :)