TiRed....Lots Of ThiNkinG....

Hey there...I've just returned from Kuching..had an interview the day before...not sure whether that can be count as an 'interview'..but I'll let it pass..hopefully will get it... =.=

My body still itching due to lots of traveling...going to Bintulu last Saturday and Sunday return to Sibu..then Sunday midnite went to Kuching coz the next morning hv an interview...then on the same day that nite went back Sibu again...damn tired...

I've been on bus the whole nite for the past 2 nite...cant really sleep well...been thinking a lot...expecially about my future career....and him...of course....

I miss him so much...miss him badly...he seems quite busy now probably he's having exam...hope it's really bcoz of that....keep feeling as if he tried to avoid me...although I dont wanna believe that...I ask him if we can hv lunch or dinner together but he said he's busy..alrite then...I pray for him n hope he done well n all da best...

For me..he's my other half...really hope it'll everlasting...although I cant predict n really know what's he's thinking..n feel... Just hope...he can see my care n love for him....

Miss him so much...wondering when both of us can have a chit chat or meeting again...feel like havent talked to each other like years.... Yeah I know...Im overreact.... :)

Miss him damn much...Dear God...Protect him always in whatever he's doing.... n my other prayers too... Amen...

DePreSSeD!!

Depressed....stress..tension...dissapointed...sad...hurt....aLL in ONE!! :'(

I guess what others always said were true after all... they will change right after they got what they've been wanted all along...no more sweet talks..no more caring attitude...no more lots of chatting/talks..instead it'll seem like they'll keep away n sort of...avoiding.... can't sense the sincerity...while b4 they get what they've been wanted...they're always there by our side...

But its ok...coz..I love him..I'll wait..for him to change back..or at least...until he knows how much I love him n care for him...or even worse....until he left me... :(

Dear God..If U hear my pray...Pls open his heart..n let him see how much I care for him n love him... Amen...

Sad...

Right now... I feel this....

 

God... give me strength... I'm so so so sad.... :(

I only show my concern..is it wrong?...

I can sense n see you're trying to avoid me..though I don't know and not sure whether you really are...

I have feelings too...Am not just any toys...

I know you're busy... I just wanna cheer you up and became your strength...

But no matter how busy you are...I just hope that you wouldn't say such words such sentence...

But you said it already... and it hurts like hell...regardless you said it purposely or not....

Are u sincere?... Or just playing around?...But deep in my heart I can feel that you also have the feelings that I had...

Just..maybe coz you're a guy then you're a bit ego...

What you said just now...really influence me a lot... :(

Just hoping... I can forget what you had said... :(

But I can't....hurts....so much...

BeeN tHinKing A LoT...

I keep on thinking...n thinking....n thinking.....bout him..bout me...bout us....what will happen next... I'm really unto him.. :) Does he feel this way too?..Although I'm a bit doubt it...men mah...ego.... =.=
 
I was so tense, so stresses...n sad....but got some good sentences and advise from my friend....at least manage to calm me a bit  =.=

Well... among the things my friend said....

"Marriage is about love, sharing, liking and being happy together...

DON'T FIND SOMEONE THAT U CAN LIVE WITH... BUT FIND SOMEONE THAT U CANNOT LIVE WITHOUT"

Be happy with someone that can make u happy even though belum tentu u akan kawin dgn nya  

So, go on with your life, follow the flow... "


So I guess I'll follow the advise...am trying my best...to just go on with my life..n follow the flow... :)


  

It's MaY!!!

OMG!! It's been 2 months since I last update my blog...

The past 2 months...a lot happened.... My grandma (late grandpa's sister) past away.. 3 weeks later my aunt past away..

But most of all... 28 & 30 April... had became my most wonderful, unforgettable day!!
Especially on the 28.. my first...!!!!  :) ;)

And guess what?? Now I'm in a relationship
(Although we havent announce and make it official as he said he don't want to rush...but it feels weird when he said that as it seems like we've already 'rush' in 'it'..but nevermind -.- )

N I love him very much & hope will end with marriage.. For me, now he's my other half :)

I'm not sure how he feels though... I mean whether he really committed with our relationship or just playing around.. But I do hope he's not... Coz I know he's busy with work & study, but he still manage to spare his time for me when I needed him :) I really really hope our relationship will last..forever.. :) Talking bout him make me miss him already ;)

If only I can read his mind n his heart..but..well....men are good at hiding their feelings & emotion...we'll never know... It might still be too early...as he said...but...I really hope...he's also like me..wanna keep it forever... :)

Dear.. I miss u n love u so muchhh!! :)