Received Interview Invitation Email from Maybank

Hi  there!

Today I received an email from Maybank HQ HR..inviting me for an interview next week, for the post of CRE,Customer Relationship Executive.

It has been so long since I'm nervous when I have interview...haha probably too much and a lots of interviews that I don't know how to feel nervous...but this time, I'm superb NERVOUS hahaha...

Keeps on wondering how the interview would be...what they would ask n etc.... maybe there would even be an assessment held...It's a well known organization we're talking about..Maybank..hahaha...sure they would have a different way of selecting their people ;)

Im glad God answered another of my prayer...which is this email and the interview :) Thank YOU GOD...

Anyway, no matter what, I'll try my best...with God help n I won't stop praying :)

Dear God.. If this is the job for me, pls help me n guide me... If it;s not for me, pls strengthen my heart so that I won't be disappointed too much n won't give up.... Amen.

Maybank called....

Despite all the messed up of my feelings n life... Maybank HR called me....the gurl said will arrange an interview for me in Sibu next week... they will email me for my confirmation... good news... n also bad news...dunno lah...Im actually not into banking sector..unless this is my destiny..but still...I'll do my best...

And not long after that..my ex colleague in Bintulu called me...he said another project start soon and ask me to join them...but I dun really think Im ready to go back there...after everything that happened to me there...still hurts... I'll leave to God....

Banking Sector?...

Hurm...lately don't know why...everyone is pushing me towards banking sector for my career...n what a coincidence that Maybank have few vacants and I did apply...n today I was informed that Kanowit branch RHB also need people...and I will pass my resume to my brother by the weekend...

On the other hand...I miss him....very much.....there might be nothing between us...I mean any special relationship as we already broke up last May and our 'meeting' last Friday might mean nothing to him and maybe for him to fulfill he's needs.....but it does mean a lot to me....

He might don't love me and treat me like.....what people call it?....baju pakai buang?....nevermind...consider Im just he's.....toy when he's bored....but Im happy enough to see him happy....yup.....I am hurt....badly...when the person I love treated me that way.....but I can't change people....I will just have to keep holding on...until one day...he officially owned by others..by marriage...then..I'll move on...probably...or just watch him from afar....

Despite he's silent attitude after our 'meeting'....he do reply my msg...sometimes....n it makes me happy when I know that he's in good health n condition....I always pray he'll be in good health always....enough for me...

I know Im torturing n hurting myself....but I really can't help it.....can't help the feeling of wanting to be with him...protect him...support him in whatever he do.....

Hmmm...later continue....